It Never Fails...

The minute you admit that things feel better and that you can actually enjoy a day or two in a row; reality kicks you in the ass. Some sick joke from above. A phone call from dad...who got a call from the nurse..she's not eating well, she's down to 119 pounds, has a slight fever and she's extremely agitated. Not eating isn't good...a fever isn't good....I try to tell him that maybe it's just a bad day and she will start eating well again. But he can't get past the thought of her not eating, and dwindling away. Laying there, no feeding tube as was her wish, but having to watch that and think about her slowly starving her body to death? Well the thought just rips us both apart as we talk about it. Borrowed time couldn't me more true. Just when you think you may have more, you get proven wrong. That's what a person get's for thinking and actually hoping. Hope gets you nowhere but disappointed....A sad fact that she managed to forget for a brief period of "borrowed time."