Monday, January 15, 2007
Time Flies...
Where does the time go? The older I get the faster it seems to go. First a day, then a month and before you know it another year has passed by. It seems like yesterday when I was just a kid. Now I am almost 40. Time just goes way too fast. There were so many things I thought I would have done by now that I haven't done. I always thought I was going to be a traveler. I wanted to go see the sights and sounds of other places. It sounded easy back then as I was dreaming about it, but then work, life and money get in the way, and you just never get the chance to do that as much as you'd like. I always laughed when my parents kept wishing they could turn back time. I just kept wanting to have it go faster so I could be 16, 18 and then 21. I never fully understood, but now I do. A lifetime seems like forever, but it goes faster than a person can ever imagine.
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
Question of the Day.....
Is it better to have loved and lost or never to have loved at all? Good question but no good answer. I can honestly say that I have limited my emotions since the divorce. I don't want to get hurt again. I don't want to feel that strongly about someone and then have something bad happen. Even if they don't divorce or leave you eventually there is the whole death thing. Uff.. Life is tough. I never would have signed on for it if given the option. Of course my parents never asked me.. ha :)
So is it better to go through all the pain or just avoid the pain altogether and be alone? I am sure there are those people who think I am crazy and a pessimist. But being a realist is more the way I look at it.
Losing parents is another thing. It just seems to me that there would be a better way for people to leave this earth. My parents are deteriorating right before my eyes and it literally is killing me. How sad. These people that you looked up to and that took care of you; and comforted you whenever you needed it? They were so strong and made you feel so safe. Now they are regressing and deteriorating. Old age sucks. No child should have to see their parents like that. It just isn't right.
I am sure there are those people that say that living alone and not letting people in isn't right either. And maybe that is true. However faced with the option, right now I will take that over the pain and suffering of loving and losing.
So is it better to go through all the pain or just avoid the pain altogether and be alone? I am sure there are those people who think I am crazy and a pessimist. But being a realist is more the way I look at it.
Losing parents is another thing. It just seems to me that there would be a better way for people to leave this earth. My parents are deteriorating right before my eyes and it literally is killing me. How sad. These people that you looked up to and that took care of you; and comforted you whenever you needed it? They were so strong and made you feel so safe. Now they are regressing and deteriorating. Old age sucks. No child should have to see their parents like that. It just isn't right.
I am sure there are those people that say that living alone and not letting people in isn't right either. And maybe that is true. However faced with the option, right now I will take that over the pain and suffering of loving and losing.
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