My Xmas Tree....

I always wanted to spend the holidays someplace warm, like the caribbean etc..So this year I thought I would bring it to me since I can't go there. A Xmas palm tree. If only I could get the warm weather and sand here too! :)

I love palm trees, always have. I think they are a fascination with us Midwesterners because we don't have em up here.

"He" could be subsituted with "she".....

" He awoke each morning with the desire to do right, to be a good and meaningful person, to be, as simple as it sounded and as impossible as it actually was, h a p p y. And during the course of each day his h e a r t would descend from his chest into his stomach. By early afternoon he was overcome by the feeling that nothing was right, or nothing was right for him, and by the desire to be alone. By evening he was fulfilled; alone in the magnitude of his grief, alone in his aimless guilt, alone even in his lonliness. I am not sad, he would repeat to himself over and over. I am not sad. As if he might one day convince himself. Or convince others - the only thing worse than being sad is for others to know that you are sad. I am not sad. I am not sad.
Because his life had unlimited potentional for hapiness He would fall asleep with his heart at the foot of the bed and each morning he would wake with it again in the cupboard of his rib cage, having become a little heavier, a little weaker, but still pumping. And by midafternoon he was again overcome with the desire to be somewhere else, someone else, someone else somewhere else. I am not sad." From the book "Everything is Illuminated"...Jonathan Safran Foer.

Happy Birthday Kel......

This post today is in honor of my best friend Kelle. Happy birthday to ya babe! This is one great person. She means the world to me and life is so much better because she is a part of mine. Thanks for being "my person" and for putting up with me. She deserves a metal just for that alone:) I have no idea what I did to deserve her but I am glad I did it whatever it was. I am thankful every day for our friendship! I love you!!!!

The same feeling....

Everytime she talked to her dad on the phone and he said, "the nursing home called today"...well her heart just sank. Is this the day? It can't be. She wasn't ready, but of course she would never be ready. Tonight was no different. She called her dad and he said "the nursing home called today". But the difference was her dad saying the same thing she has thought over and over lately. He said his stomach hurts everytime he hears it is the nursing home on the other end of the call. He too feels the same. Hoping it isn't THE call....dreading THE call.....scared as hell of THE call. She knew EXACTLY what he was feeling....

Fall pic...

Driving back from the lake and this mailbox caught my eye. The colors and flowers seemed to form a great back drop for it.

Hot Tub....

I had never been in a hot tub that was outside until this past weekend. Wow what a difference. I thought I liked them indoors, but outside is just so much better. Unbelievable. The air was cool but it felt refreshing, and you have the ability to stay in the tub much longer. For those few minutes it was as if all was right with the world and no problems existed. It was so nice.....
Thanks Bro for the use of the hot tub!