Workout Update...

Well it has been a little over two months now since I started working out. I really enjoy it and I never thought I would. I feel so much better when I go. Except last night. Wow what a struggle. For some reason it felt like it was the first time I was there. I felt like I was going to die. One thing I hate and will never get use to is the whole "sweating" in public thing. It just bugs me. Probably because I tend to sweat and get "red faced" more than the average person. Even if I am not dying. I can be totally under control in a workout and just kicking ass, and I still look like I am about to croak. I am just self conscious about stupid stuff like that. I wish I was one of those that exercised gracefully. You know the type; they can work out for hours and you can't tell it by looking at them. Bitches.... ha
Anyway, I haven't lost tons of weight... but my clothes fit me better. Even a little "loose". (the clothes not me) :) Oh hell who am I trying to fool....that sums up me AND my clothes. ha
I wish there was a way for the workout gods to give you a little teaser of weight loss right away. People would be so much more committed if they could see some visable results early on.
The gym is right across from work. So there are starting to be more fellow employees working out there now. That sort of bugs me too. When they see me at work, they see me at my best. (Or as good as it is going to get anyway). I just don't like the thought of them seeing me at my worst. Oh well.... fuck em. It will give them something to talk about I guess. Not that they need any help in that area. ha
You know I say fuck em...but I still care and still don't want them seeing me at my worst...Stupid but true.