Got an e-mail from my X the other day. He has given "someone" an engagement ring. Ouch that hurts. Talk about a blow to a person's ego. Doesn't want to be married to me anymore but not quite 2 years later, gives a ring to someone else.
I knew he was living with someone, but for him to make a committment? Well it just hurts like hell. Talk about a person's stomach dropping to their knees when I was reading that e-mail. Uff..
It wasn't pleasant. At first I thought I was dealing with it ok, but I am not. It just hit me hard and the last couple of days I have been totally bummed out. Sometimes it seems like the hurt will never end. Two years later there are still things that he can do that totally put me in the shitter....
Part of me wants to just tell him off. Let him know how much he has fucked me up. But then another part of me says not to. Will it change anything? No. Will it give me back my dignity? No. Will it give me back my old life? No... so why do it? Why stoop to that level and look bad.
I just hate feeling like this. It sucks. I would have thought after the first year or so that things wouldn't hurt as much...uff was I wrong.
Well back to work. Just had to vent.
1 comment:
Well thanks for saying that. I appreciate it. I guess there is no way that makes it any easier to hear, but still.....
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